"Trip over love, you can get up.  Fall for love and you fall forever."

I've been in an amazing mood lately.  I have no clue what has caused all this happiness but I absoutly love it. This morning was beautiful, 55degrees and sunny. I sat on Blair's porch with her cute dog, Littlebit, drank coffee, and thought about how I can't wait to have a place of my own.  My room isn't very decorated but I love to decorate things.  Sometimes I get in these crafty moods and go all out, spend a lot of money that should be saved.
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This past week was useless, a complete waste of my time. 
Tuesdays and thursdays I literally have three classes and the rest I sleep in.
I love to sleep.  If I don't have at least two cups of coffee in the morning and one nap a day, I'm a bitty.  But I was thinking the other day, sleeping takes a lot of time out of your day..so I thought that I should probably cut my nap time in half. ): I'm a night owl and hate getting up in the morning.
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We have three more games left of the '10 -'11 Peaster basketball season. (:
I have become so close to my teammates this year, definitely closer than I ever thought. They're like sisters to me, I've learned so much about them and each one of them is totally different.  I didn't think I would say this, but I'm going to miss my girls so much when the season is over and I'm not in off-season and esp. when I graduate.
I hope I've been a good leader for them, that was one of my main goals this year.  I know Shiloh, Loren, and Sarah will be extraordinary team leaders and be good role models for the younger classmen.
Team bonding last night was so much fun! I love these girls to death.
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This week brings more boredom, awkwardness, cold rainy weather, and senior night. (:

I'm learning to live half alive.

"You're gonna catch a cold with all the ice inside your soul."

Ian Coalson.  The boy I feel in love with.  The boy who has changed so much since I first met him.  The boy who has no clue what he's missing.  The boy who doesn't even know what makes him happy in life.  The boy who continues to amaze me every day and that no matter how much I want to shake him off, I can't.
I've tried to see other guys, go out and party, stay up late reading, or actually do homework, but all everything does is lead back to him. I have no clue why he has this effect on me.
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It's absoutly heart breaking when someone you care for so much and would do anything for doesn't show an ounce of affection back.
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He wants Shiloh Jenkins.  She is one heck of a girl, extremely smart, pretty, and has the world at her fingers.  She is also madly in love with Brenton Lee, and has been for like 3years.  I don't understand why he would give up something so great for someone who doesn't even acknowledge he's alive.

Basketball
I just typed a long paragraph about the whole ordeal.  But I decided that I could get in a lot of trouble if someone read it.
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I've debated going to school looking like crap because I feel like crap and unwanted, or if I should look hot as hell and rub everything in his face.

Thats all for tonight.
<3

Hello Blog world.

I'm new to this whole blog ordeal but as many have said, it's a good place to vent, share thoughts, and feelings. I'm making a bet now, maybe 1 person will read them.  Thats okay, because I'd rather them go unread.

10:56 on a school night. Past my bedtime by two hours, poor Caitlyn.

There is so much going on in my jambled up brain.  Way too much to even comprehend at this moment.
Goodnight.