Fall in love or fall in hate..

...Get inspired or be depressed,
Ace a test or flunk a class,
Make babies or make art,
Tell the truth or lie and cheat,
Dance on a table or sit in the corner,
Life is divine chaos,
Embrace it,
Forgive yourself,
Breathe and enjoy the ride."

Instead of holding back and refusing to let go of the past, I've decided to look forward and on the bright side of every single situation.  It'll be hard, I realize this.
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I haven't been sick for 3 or 4 years, I mean I get allergies, headaches, and what-not, but not fever, chills, weakness, all that jazz.  My LAST game of my high school basketball career ever and I have a fever and feel like death. I didn't tell coach because I wanted to play, man was that a bad idea. For the past three days I've had a fever and body aches. =/  I guess karma is a B, cause I always say "I never get sick!" ya, look what happens.
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"If I ask something, will yo please be completely honest? like 100%."

"Yes ma'am"

"Is any of this easy for you?"

"Yes because I don't let myself get emotionally attached to people."

--That was a slap in the face.--

"Will you someday tho? Allow yourself to actually genuinely care for someone? To open up and give them your everything?"

"Yes, some day in a non- high school relatinship."

I have never been hurt so much before.  I was ready for him to say something rude..but not this low. 
I've finally realized that he never cared, nor will he ever. So I should stop trying and thinking that it'll somehow work.
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So off to being lonley. That's what I do best. (:

Sunday nights...

are my vent nights..They're the only nights when I have time to do anything.
Its 7:39 and almost everyone in america and their dog is watching the Super Bowl.  I don't care too much for pro football, I like college. Most of all, I like basketball. March Madness is where it's at! (:
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I went to school for one day this week, it was amazinngg. There was a terrible storm monday night, rained cats and dogs and we almost had a tornado it was so windy. After that, the temperature dropped majorly and all of the ice froze. So as you've probably guessed, all the roads were a solid sheet of ice. Lootsss and lots of accidents and stupid people out on the roads. My dad was one of them,  rain or snow he has to go to work.  He kinda has an important job, putting people to sleep for surgery and stuff like that, kinda crucial.
I went to my best friend Taylor's house tuesday night then she came over wednesday and stayed till saturday. We had a blast. All of our days consisted of sleeping in and stuffing our faces. It was wonderful (: Very relaxing.
Saturday we had a game and we lost to Jacksboro, what a shame. We could of won. We should of won actually. But ya know, stuff happens. That night Taylor, Bandy, (the guy taylor is talking to) and I went to City Limits in Stephenville and the most fun I've had in a long time. We got there around 8 and left at 1. I promise you we didn't sit down for more than two songs in a row and sweated our butts off. At least we were burning calories AND having fun (: Makes it so worth it.
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This week shall bring parents night tomorrow, basketball game, LAST basketball game tuesday ): Mani and pedi wednesdayy (: and then idk what else. I haven't looked forward to so many fun filled days before in awhile. I'm happy.