...Get inspired or be depressed,
Ace a test or flunk a class,
Make babies or make art,
Tell the truth or lie and cheat,
Dance on a table or sit in the corner,
Life is divine chaos,
Embrace it,
Forgive yourself,
Breathe and enjoy the ride."
Instead of holding back and refusing to let go of the past, I've decided to look forward and on the bright side of every single situation. It'll be hard, I realize this.
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I haven't been sick for 3 or 4 years, I mean I get allergies, headaches, and what-not, but not fever, chills, weakness, all that jazz. My LAST game of my high school basketball career ever and I have a fever and feel like death. I didn't tell coach because I wanted to play, man was that a bad idea. For the past three days I've had a fever and body aches. =/ I guess karma is a B, cause I always say "I never get sick!" ya, look what happens.
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"If I ask something, will yo please be completely honest? like 100%."
"Yes ma'am"
"Is any of this easy for you?"
"Yes because I don't let myself get emotionally attached to people."
--That was a slap in the face.--
"Will you someday tho? Allow yourself to actually genuinely care for someone? To open up and give them your everything?"
"Yes, some day in a non- high school relatinship."
I have never been hurt so much before. I was ready for him to say something rude..but not this low.
I've finally realized that he never cared, nor will he ever. So I should stop trying and thinking that it'll somehow work.
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So off to being lonley. That's what I do best. (:
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